New tattoo
Current mood: Torn
Yes, I am getting a new tattoo on Tuesday already! I thought the tattoo artist weren’t available until November or something. (He is really good, the best in my town, at the very least). Anyway, I am going to do those paw prints with the cat’s names written above them in a finical style. I think it will be a real cool and a meaningfull tattoo. For me.
//Syntium
Part II 16:11
Current mood: Restless
Don’t feel torn anymore between happy and.. Well, I don’t know exactly what to call this mood. It feels like ants crawling inside my body, and my belly contains a million butterflies. Sure, I had a rough day yesterday, but should it affect today? Obviously it does. I feel crappy to say the least, despite that I was so happy and psyched about the tattoo before. Yesterday, I actually considered drinking some alcohol. Luckily I didn’t have any at home so, I went out and bought an expensive 2 litres bottle of coke. But I miss it. The feeling of beeing totally relaxed and just almost sleepy, and able to laugh at anything. Heck, I even miss the taste of alcohol. But I can’t drink it, because that would risk my life.
But I hate being limited and not be able to do what others do! I hate being easily stressed! I hate having schizophrenia and having to take alot of pills just to feel ‘normal’!
Ah, fuck it!
//Syntium
