Imbalanced
Current mood: Dispirited 
This summer has been.. Weird. It feels like I’ve completely lost my inner balance sort of. Hard to describe. It’s as if my soul has been torn in two, and that I am stuck in the middle of myself. Not a very comfortable feeling. Don’t know why I feel this way, maybe because it’s well, summer. I haven’t felt strong enough to do anything, like make preparations for my possible school attendance. And that feels like disappointment to myself. I had decided to do it but somehow.. Well, it didn’t happen. But there’s still time I guess.
There’s so many things I should do that I don’t. Because I’m stuck (well, almost) by my computer doing.. Nothing really. I should be out photographing or something. Something! Meeting people, experience things, not just live my life through fantasies in my head.
But I lack the energy, I lack the strength to pull myself out of this treadmill that I’ve gotten stuck in. I’m in need of a serious pep talk.
//Syntium
