Decided
Current mood: -
I saw this oh so cute and so beautiful cat in an ad. I got really psyched as it seemed to be the perfect cat for me. It was a Ragdoll, and hence kind of expensive. And then there’s all things you need to buy for the cat (stuff like I don’t know the English word for ;)
But anyway, after I thought about it, long and hard, I decided that I just can’t afford a cat right now. And even if I maybe can afford to buy the stuff needed for the cat (and the cat itself) there are running expenses like food and kitty litter and insurance. So, no cat. Which sucks hard!
Maybe I should do what everyone says I should do, to put myself first, do things for myself. (I don’t really know why a cat would exclude me doing things for myself, but they tell me it would) so I am going back to school soon. Which is a little bit scary, I admit that, but maybe it won’t be that hard. Had a dream (yeah I know this is not the dream blog ^^) about me being back to my old school where I met my soul mate. And I was studying Swedish, and I was way behind with writing assignments, so I tried to get the teacher to tell me exactly what it was I had to do. But she kept avoiding and eluding me. It was just a short sequence.
So.. Now that I am going to ‘commit’ myself to myself, I have decided to do a kind of surgery to lose weight. A gastric bypass or something like that. I have started with taking walks around the block twice a day, and I like it. Ilike getting out a little and away from the computer, but around the block is just about what I can handle before my back and my legs are killing me. So, on the other hand it feels actually very silly to think that I will lose 60+ kilos just by taking walks around the block. I’ll tell it to my doctor and we’ll see what happens.
It’s not a matter of vanity. Except the fact that I can hardly walk without crying of pain, my mom has diabetes (and I really do Not want that) and both she and my grandmother has high blood pressure and heart problems. And there’s obesity in the family. So it’s really a health issue now. And I’m not taking this as ‘the easy way out’. Both my mom and my brother has done it ( but for mom it failed, and my brother went through it twice) so I know what it’s about. Not that you can ever be prepared for something like that. But I’ve thought it through many times and I want to do this. So keep your fingers crossed.
//Syntium
