Book thoughts
Current mood: Agog
So, I’m trying to write these memoirs of mine. And I’m waiting for my medical record to arrive, so that I can give the specifics on certain things. It’s hard to describe fuzzy pictures in your head or remember what I, he or she said. Hence the medical record. I’m hoping that will help me elaborate on the memories I have.
But I’m really excited about the thought of having written my very own book. Guess I’m better at writing than talking sometimes, because one of the reasons I am writing this is that, I want people to understand me better. And maybe, perhaps, if I may be so bold, I hope that it will help people understand others in my situation. Or, schizophrenics, to spell it out bluntly.
Though one of my concerns is that family and friends are going to read this. I’m not sure if it’s healthy for them to read about my suicide attempts, the psychotic side of me. But on the other hand, I can’t take responsibility for them. And it wouldn’t be fair to urge someone to buy the book and then not get to read it. Guess I’m just scared that their view of me will change. That they will pity me or something.
Though I am having doubts of my script. If it’s good enough and so on. And of course there’s this impatience of mine. I want the book done Now! Just for the feeling of holding your own book in your hands. It would be awesome!
What else is happening in my little life? Well I think I wrote about the meeting on Monday, where I will apply for a class in Swedish to start with, then I apparently need Religion and Science also. So, I have some studying ahead of me. Guess what I’m most afraid of is, that it will all happen too fast. That I won’t be able to keep up with myself, so to speak.
Well, I’ll stop boring you now. Just one more thing..
I miss you D..
//Syntium
