On public demand..
Current mood: Content
I guess there’s been some folks who’ve been just dyyyying to get a blog entry from me, considering the comment I’ve gotten. ;)
But I’ve been a little reluctant to write this entry. Don’t really know why. I’ve started writing several times but it just wouldn’t come out right. But with that little encouragement in that comment, I feel ready to write (and stop rambling).
‘Let’s get the job done’
So last Monday, I went to see my doctor to see if she would refer me to a surgeon or wherever you get referred to when you want that kind of operation. But she talked to me about the usual stuff like ‘Eat better’, ‘Take fast walks of at least half an hour’, and it felt like she was almost mocking me because I can hardly make it around the block, and like I didn’t already know these things. I do, I’ve heard it a million times from a million different people. Of course she didn’t know that but I kind of pissed me off that she just assumed I hadn’t tried this. But she told me that if she sent a referral now, she would only get it back, because apparently you have to prove that you can lose some weight before you get the surgery.
Which is, in my humble opinion, totally fucked up. If I could lose weight on my own, I would! But there’s just so much weight I have to lose, so there’s no way in hell that I could lose it on my own.
Anyhoo.. She talked to me about this health center that I should go to, and talk with a nurse and they would do tests on me like cholesterol and BMI and stuff. At first she said that I had to go there for a year, but then I said that I couldn’t do that, and she changed her mind to ‘a few months’ which is, when you think about it very relative. I don’t have an appointment to this health center until the 28th of October so another couple of weeks which will go by soo slow.
At first, I was really disappointed that she didn’t refer me further, but now, when I’ve had time to digest the talk and so on, gotten a few tips from my sister-in-law, I feel really.. Determined is probably the right word. To eat right and take walks, ride my bike. And I started yesterday to write down everything I eat, and I mean everything! I feel pepped (is that a word?) up and it finally felt like I could embrace the advice that my sister-in-law gave me. Before, all those things just went right through one ear and out through the other. I didn’t want to listen. But still.. I hope it’s not more than five kg that I have to lose. I’m going to have to work my ass off to do that but, maybe I’m on the right track now. It feels like it.
Oh, and I got a haircut yesterday ^_^
And now I think I’m of to take a walk!
//Syntium
