Syntium – The Blog

Current mood: Fidgety

So, in retrospect, it was a pretty wise decision of me, not to buy that cat. And yet, I run off, buying clothes which I can’t even wear. Well, yet that is. I hope. It is now seven days until I have my doctor’s appointment, and the countdown has begun. I so hope I will get that surgery soon. Not that I would bet on it, the waiting line is probably miles and miles long. Today I went for my usual walk around the block and.. It hurt like hell, I tell ya! I hate wearing shoes!! I can’t walk right in them, I tend to walk on the outside of the foot, which of course makes my ankle hurt. Like hell! I just can’t take it anymore, being overweight. I feel like I’m about to have a mental breakdown.

I mean, if I am overweight, and just about everything hurts when I’m out taking my walks, then you’re not very enthusiastic about taking those walks. Thus, you get trapped in your own body. I feel like I’m heading that way and it scares the shit out of me.

Tomorrow, I’m going to talk to my new teacher. Don’t really know what to say about that, I have suppressed so that I won’t think too much about it. I’ll just go there and do it and come what may. Maybe I’ll write tomorrow, about how it went.

I don’t want to dwell on this fact, that I am overweight, but I think about it everyday. I just wish I could get this GBP done like in month or so. Or maybe after Christmas (don’t want to miss out on the Christmas food, heh ;) No but really soon like.. now! Yeah, I know I am impatient. Oh let it be Monday already! (The 13th).

//Impatient Syntium