Syntium – The Blog

Current mood: Still contemplative

Started to think some more..
Why does a soul have to suffer? It’s not easy feeling depressed and stuff (been there, done that, have the t-shirt).

We’ve established that I am inclined to believe the reincarnation theory. Now, if that is so, maybe the core of the soul is gathering information. But for what? My only reference here is Earth, since we know nothing of life on other planets yet (that doesn’t mean that there isn’t any).
Maybe it’s a kind of trial and error thing. Think of all the life forms that has existed throughout the eons of time, everything from the first ameba, to the largest dinosaur, to a human. Why did all the dinosaurs die out just like that? Maybe someone/something realised that there needed to be a ‘higher’ life form than a reptile, with a more evolved emotional life. That it had gotten all the info it needed from them and it was time to start over with something new.
Like I said in the previous post, nothing lasts forever. But there can never ever be just ‘nothing’. Transformed energy and all that.

And the suffering? I think everyone suffers from time to time. Some more than others. But I don’t think anyone’s life is a breeze even if it may seem like that from a distance.

I don’t kow, maybe I come off as a total oddball writing all of this. But I’m just trying to make sense of stuff. Or maybe not make sense, but define what I believe myself. Because the truth is, we’ll never know anything, at least not as long as we are on this planet.

I do however have another little theory about that, whatever you think is going to happen to you after you die, maybe that’s what’s going to happen as well.. But just not Heaven or Hell. They are man made, at least Hell is. God didn’t create the humans, humans created god. Or, that’s my belief at any rate.

I’m open for debate on all of this, so if you feel like dropping me a comment, don’t hesitate.

//Syntium

Current mood: Contemplative

I just have to scribble down some thoughts, if I can word them, that is. Some thoughts are just feelings, and I just get the feeling that everything I say has been said before but in a much better way. This will just be random thoughts with no order what so ever.
But anyway..

We can’t be sure of a lot.. Certainly not what the media writes (ok, some sources are more reliable that others, but that’s a whole other subject). The only thing that’s certain for us all is death. That nothing lasts forever, only a different amount of time. This I believe. That even the universe is born at some point and dies at some point and that it’s replaced by something else. Maybe another universe, maybe something completely different. I base this on my thought that every being, be it human or a six-legged bug, is a universe. Something we can never fully comprehend. I think I am as close to D as I possibly can, but still there’s a whole lot to him that I will never reach. Like the stars at night.

I am not sure that the universe is infinite, it has boundaries, but what lies outside those boundaries I have no clue.
But on the other hand.. Is there a limitation to a human being? I mean there are the physical stuff, but the soul? If I may take D for example again, as close as we are, there are thoughts in him that I can’t follow, and vice versa of course. What I’m writing down now is more of intuitive feelings of what I believe of Life, Universe and Everything. And to communicate those feelings, we would have to develop another way of communicating, like telepathy or something. I can describe a feeling, but I an never ever be sure of what D interprets them as, even if he says he understands.

I wonder if the feelings us humans feel are the same. And here comes the telepathy thing again… If I could somehow transfer my feeling to D, then he would understand a lot better.
I used to wish for a way to be able to communicate telepathically, when I was younger and had trouble telling what I felt or describe it. But, as I grew older, those mental blocks dissipated, and now I feel that I can get across what I actually feel pretty well most of the time.

But on the other hand.. The mind can be endless, or can it? I’m not sure what to think about that. I mean, there must be a million thoughts that will never even be on my mental checklist. But maybe on someone else’s? Maybe we should form a sort of collective mind, where we can get thoughts from each other? (Yes that was a joke. A half joke ;)
I do wish telepathy could work, then, where words don’t suffice, you could just ‘beam’ the love (for example) to a person that can’t really believe that you love them or understand why. Surround them in pink, fluffy clouds where they would feel loved, no matter what.

And I also believe that if we could ‘talk’ this way, there would be less unhappy people. Maybe less mentally ill people, if we could just get across that they are understood and not alone. Perhaps we will evolve to that, who knows? If our own stupidity doesn’t kill us before that. I wish I could stick around and see what happens to the world. Not that I would like to be immortal, not at all, but watch from a distance or something..

..Which leads us into the subject of what happens when you die. I am probably contradicting myself now, but I want to believe in the eternal soul. And the soul? Well the soul is.. Something that lives inside of you, your mind, and outside of you like an aura (or maybe it is the aura also?). That undefinable thing that makes you unique. It’s an energy, and energy can’t be destroyed, only transformed. So the 100,000 $ question is.. What is a soul transformed from and to, after a human uses it? I think I’m starting to get into the whole reincarnation thing. I mean, it sort of makes sense. But if so then the soul would expand with every person it ‘inhabits’, because there’s something unique with everyone. Which leads me to believe that even a soul has its limits. And when it’s done being reincarnated in various human bodies, it travels on to.. Some place where it can rest and maybe its energy will decrease into a core of this soul.

But what of the place where the soul’s rest then? Hmm, well I suppose it must be a part of the universe, and as such also a kind of energy that transforms every now and then.
There’s just so much I want to know about everything, but a part of me says that some things we are just not meant to know. At least not yet. Maybe in a distant future.

Phew, feels like I’ve solved every mystery there is. Thank you for reading my rant ^_^.

//Syntium