Syntium – The Blog

Current mood: Stunned

‘Summer had hit but it was not moving’

I made a budget today (with a little help), and if we have calculated right, and I buy Only food, I can save roughly around 2k. That’s 2000 SEK!! Which means, If I do buy Only food and Only that, I could have my kitten in say, 4 months at the earliest!

I’ve noticed that I’m not very good at saving. I’ve really tried to save these past few months, for the book and all. But it hasn’t gone too well with saving money. But next month, the book is through selling (and I have sold half of them so far!) and I will buy the remaining ones, and then start saving up for a cat!
But problem is, I probably have to buy new glasses next month also, so maybe five months of saving. Then there’s stuff for the cat that you have to buy, like litter box and… Well, stuff. So I’m probably up in one grand in just stuff.
But if I can save those 2 grand a month, and the breeder has a litter around January, or maybe February… So I guess not this year, but we’ll see. We’ll see…

Tomorrow it is August. I am both relieved, and a little sad. Barefooting season’s end is drawing closer and closer. But this year I won’t stop going barefoot until it’s too cold. And relieved? I don’t know… Summers tend to make me feel weird. Like in a not so good way. They kind of screw up my routines with vacations and stuff. (Other people’s vacations, that is). It’s like everything is on holdup and I don’t like that. I want it to feel like time Is going by. Haven’t really felt that this summer. I am waiting for so many things and then there’s just no feeling of time passing by at all. It’s very frustrating.

Oh, well… Now I am off to make pizza!

//Syntium

Current mood: In need of cat

I called the hospital to ask when I’m supposed to be summoned there for talk about a gastric bypass. And I found out that you have to wait three months. It’s already been one month, or maybe I should say ‘already’ because it does seem to have been much longer. Time goes by so slow when you’re waiting for something.

I think alot about the surgery, or rather, how things will be after the surgery. It concerns me a bit that I’m only thinking that I will have cats (yes, I will get one sacred birman, and then if that works out, a British shorthair also). But I don’t seem to worry much about the fact that I will radically have to change my lifestyle. It’s not just about eating less, it’s about eating more often. For me (who hasn’t had regular meals since I was a kid) this will be the hardest I think, getting used to eat like six times a day. Which is the way you should eat, a little at a time and several times a day, and not like me, who eat three times (tops) and bigger portions.
And.. The big And! It’s for life. I’ll never be able to eat whole pizza again! Maybe a quarter of a pizza at the most, I don’t know. Maybe I’ll not be able to eat it at all. It seems to be a few things that you can’t eat and that’s very individual.
So, I should adjust to that idea, of eating less. But it’s hard. I want to think of all the fun things, like feeling comfortable in my own skin and the fact that I can wear clothes that is more ‘my style’ that just plain t-shirts. I’m bored with those now, but I’m too fat to wear anything fun, because they come in too small sizes :S

Let’s talk about something more fun… Cats!!! As said, the cat I’m getting first and foremost is a sacred birman. I so love those cats, they are bautiful and seem to have a good temperament. And then, for some reason, I also found a British shorthair in the color of black silver shaded when googling (for cats I guess). It was just so beautiful, so I think I’m having one of those as well.

Signing off!

//Syntium

Current mood: Ambivalent

‘Time drags by real slow’

Yes, I’ve changed the blog’s theme again, so sue me. I wasn’t planning on changing theme, but as I surfed the web for a wordpress theme for another blog (yes, yet another blog) I found this theme. Feels more spacious sort of, good-sized. Or something like that.

Aaanyway. Yes I am thinking of starting another blog. As I have taken up World of Warcraft again, I was thinking of writing a blog from a Death Knights perspective.
I did have a WoW-blog a while ago, writing as a hunter, but I got bored with that. There is a chance that I will get bored with this one too. And I need to read up on death knights as I haven’t played the other Warcraft games, only WoW, and I don’t know a whole lot of Warcraft lore.

It would feel good to practise my writing skills, but then again, I have a lot of other ideas, fan fics and regular fiction that I should probably write. But one thing doesn’t have to exclude another. Maybe. I do kind of feel like writing on my Diablo II: LoD fan fic, hmm maybe I’ll take a look at it.
And just because it’s a blog doesn’t mean that it has to be updated like every single day ^^.  I’ll write when I feel like it.

Another thing I just have to get off my chest (again) is that  I WANT A SACRED BIRMAN KITTEN! There, now I feel a tiny bit better. I’ve decided to get a kitten instead of an older cat. I Will have the energy for it! To put the kitten before the computer and stuff. But alas, there will be a long long time, before I can get my kitten boy.

Then there’s the origami. I really wish I could be better at it, I seem to have an uncanny knack for making the cranes and swans look like roadkills. Maybe that is a matter of practise, but I don’t seem to get any better at it. :/

That’s all folks (for now anyway)

//Syntium

Current mood: Fretful

‘Do you have the time
To listen to me whine
About nothing  and everything
All at once’

I mean, my GOD, how boring everything is!! This summer hasn’t proved very eventful so far.
Ok, now I’m lying. I did go and see a breeder of birman cats last Friday. I am So having one of those when time, energy and money is there. Well, technically I have time, but not the other two. It sucks, I need a furry friend.

But that wasn’t my point. My point was that this has been an unfuckingbeliveably boring summer. And I don’t know what to do. I don’t have any friends (not even a furry one).
I don’t have any money so I can’t buy any stuff to satisfy this restlessness.

I just want to whine, kick, and be angry about everything, not about anyone or anything in particular but just… Everything.

I’m sorry.

//Syntium