Syntium – The Blog

‘The things that are pleasing you
Will hurt you somehow’

B-day Saturday. Having family over for dinner on Sunday. Both looking forward to and not. Things are kind of shitty right now. Or not ‘kind of’ they are shitty. Really shitty. Feels like my whole inside are breaking apart and that I am stuck with the pieces that I don’t want. I really don’t like myself very much right now.

I’m thinking I should deny myself one thing that I really want, because in the end it will only be even messier inside of me. And yet the thought of giving that up brings tears to my eyes. But it is what I should do, but I don’t know if I can. And that hurts even more.

//Syntium