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Current mood: Sad
Yes, sad this time as well, but in a different kind of way. Or maybe not so different after all.
Went to visit my grandmother yesterday. As I’ve written here before, she is getting increasingly forgetful, and yesterday she seemed to have taken one dose too much of the medication (it comes in small plastic bags with the date and time on them, so really, she shouldn’t be able to mess it up), and this has happened at least once before.
I don’t now.. It’s just heartbreakening to see it from the outside, and I can’t imagine what she’s feeling. It must be embarrassing to get ‘caught’ with something strange that you have done. Sometimes she ask the same question twice or even three times as if it just slipped her mind completely.
And what I realised yesterday is that.. I guess maybe the day of when she can’t remember anything at all is getting closer and closer. And eventually.. Well, she won’t be there anymore.
But I think it would be easier to accept that fact if she wasn’t showing signs of some kind of dementia, if her mind wasn’t dulled or whatever the best word is to use here. Or maybe I’m just trying to trick myself into thinking it would be easier.
In a few years.. who knows where she is? That saddens me.
//Syntium
