Syntium – The Blog

One of my favorite movies of all time is ‘Pump up the volume’ (imdb) It came out around 1990 and it’s about a guy who runs his own pirate radio station. There’s a lot of anger and frustration in it that I related to as a teenager, being in school and still having compulsory school attendance.
I even day-dreamed of having my own radio station. Telling all of my thoughts and play music that I like. That didn’t happen, I wrote a book instead, about ten years later.

Anyway, I watched the movie again today, and I still feel like it has something important to tell us.
A quote from the movie: ‘Dear Harry, I think you’re boring and obnoxious and have a high opinion of yourself.’ Course some of you are probably thinking I sent this one to myself. ‘I think school is okay if you just look at it right. I mean I like your music, but I really don’t see why you can’t be cheerful for one second.’ I’ll tell you since you asked. I just arrived in this stupid suburb. I have no friends, no money, no car, no license. And even if I did have a license all I can do is drive out to some stupid mall. Maybe if I’m lucky play some fucking video games, smoke a joint and get stupid. You see, there’s nothing to do anymore. Everything decent’s been done. All the great themes have been used up. Turned into theme parks. So I don’t really find it exactly cheerful to be living in the middle of a totally, like, exhausted decade where there’s nothing to look forward to and no one to look up to.’

Sometimes I get that same feeling. That we’re living in an exhausted decade, everything’s been done, everything’s been said. But as I watched it today, it felt up-to-date, with free speech and so on. And it hit me that the Internet is this new thing! This is where ‘ordinary’ people can speak their minds, through blogs, videos and what have you.
But this freedom (as freedom always is) is fragile. Authorities and governments want to control it, monitoring the Internet, claiming that it’s for catching pedophiles and terrorists, but it really feels like you’re guilty until proven innocent.

Talk hard!

//Syntium

‘Who would have thought it could be amazing
Who would have thought the tiny corageous’

Oh my Lordy.. It’s been quite a while since I wrote here. It just hasn’t felt right, though I have had many thoughts popping up now and then about writing here.
There’s just been so much new stuff to get used to with the gastric bypass, like eating slooowly (I still haven’t got the hang of that), but.. I do have lost 20 kg so far! That feels really amazing, I mean 20 kg!! But at the same time a li’l frustrating. Because at the same time it goes slowly. I have a lot of clothes that I have bought before, thinking that ‘Well , I am going to lose weight so..’ But I did never lose that weight, until now that is. 20 kg but not enough for all of the t-shirts. The looked like they are glued to my body.

‘Nuff about that.. What else has happened? Not much, to tell you the truth. I have decided to actually postpone me getting cats to some time in the future. I just doesn’t feel right at the moment, despite my wish to have a furry friend. I just don’t get in that mood anymore of absolutely ‘must have cat’-feelings.

A thing that bugs me is that I don’t haven’t had much desire to write stuff since the surgery. This feeling of wanting to write stories so much that you actually sit down and do it. Not much of that, no. Although I started on a movie script, an idea that I’ve had since I was like 15.
It’s kind of frustrating, to want to want write, but you just don’t want to.

Ah, this wasn’t the deep, grand blog post I was hoping to come up with so I’ll see ya.

//Syntium